I just found out yesterday that we were moving, but I thought 'hey, they'll wait until I finish college'.
Wrong.
They're moving soon, and I have to go through the whole switching program again which I had to go through when I was a kid and I had to find this out today in the Learning Mentor room. Not only that when I asked her about it she said that yesterday was her last chance to say 'yes or no' to the house and because I didnt say anything she thought I was fine with it.
I'm not fine now I now whats going on. Plus thats makes me feel like I've brought it upon myself!
I've spent 5 years where I am and sure it may be the pits but I know my way around and they know me. They don't in Newcastle and I'll just be 'the new kid with the funny voice' because thats what always happens.
And I know I'm not normal and I don't just mean the 'goes from the crowd' because I do that too but I was born not normal. Not only that my mother constantly uses it as an excuse!
'Time I accidently got lost when I got off too soon on a bus'- Wasnt her fault, it's her condition!
'Time I took 45 minutes coming home'- Wasnt her fault, it's her condition! Like hell! I was late because the college was holding lessons in the Racecourse which ment I had to come home from I different way and I still didn't know those streets.
I don't want a condition to be an excuse for what I am, I want to manage myself by myself with the help of my friens who understand. What I have doesn't rule my life, hell it barely changes anything. I don't want 'Wasnt her fault, its her condition' I want people to be impressed by me and them not knowing what I have at first. I want to be a role model for people who have what I have and let them know it doesn't have to change that much besides what people think. My mother loves me, I know that but sometimes she didn't love me so much so it would be so much easier to hate her when she's doing all this.

Damn I really hate sounding like an angsty teenager... I know moving doesn't end your life buts I just don't want to go through all this...